im pisssed off...

i cant stop thinking about your last message.

"u will regret this day! ill show u im worth it"

it takes two to tango...man.
ur telling me that the reason why we ended this way is all my fault.
you should have asked yourself why.
probably u did something that really struck my last nerve.

i hate it when u make me feel so worthless
like one time when u told me that i wont go anywhere with my chosen carreer.
How dare u say that?!?!
i know uve achieved alot already
but to tell me that im a failurewell...F*#K YOU!

everything has been easy for you
ur a rich girl
everything has been provided for you
all your life u never had to experience the things that i ve experienced before.

its just sad that ur the first person who would actually make me feel bad about myself
considering that you're one of the persons that I run to for guidance.
Stupid me....

love this song!!! captures what i feel right now

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I feel really low today.
Been having an argument with this person for like the longest time of my life.
Weve been together for almost three years now.
I dont know if I have to treasure those last 3 years.
Im thinking I wasted those precious 3 years.
I really dont know.
Probably Im just too mad at this time
I cant think of anything good about the past relationship that I just had.

Am I being too naive?!?!
I cant think straight right now.
Better stop it or someone will get really hurt.

mah first blog

Hi all.
This is my first blog.
Been wanting to do this for a long time.
Im glad I finally had the chance to start one.
See yah all.